I think I owe you all an apology. I realize my blogs have been cryptic as of late, and I’m not trying to lead you on or tempt you. The thing is, except for a small handful, I really don’t know who any of you people are that are reading this thing. And I’ve always had a policy that I don’t let anyone know more about me than I know about them; sort of an informational trade. It keeps us balanced, and there’s no potential for blackmail and the like.
So, with this is mind, I’ve kinda had a policy with this site that I wasn’t going to ever get too personal. Lord knows I’ve had more shit go on in the past six months than I’d care to share, and I felt certain people may read this and think they’ve gotten the upper hand. It was never meant to be a weapon, but I simply wanted to keep my feelings personal, save for the occassional veiled attack, etc.
Anyway, lately I’ve come to admire the existence of the “personal blog”. I like the blogs where people tell you about their day, and what’s on their minds. I like when they’re anxious and have hopes and dreams. I’ve been hiding behind pop culture references and whatnot because I was sublimating things in my life, and simply trying to express myself without giving too much away. Don’t get me wrong: I do still care about ’80s TV and Wonkette DNC coverage, but there are other sides to me as well. It’s just that I don’t really think people appreciate the real me. Sure, he’s cute and quirky and fun, but I think I have a Pauly Shore factor: I get old FAST. So, few people really get to know the real ME, because that’s something that’s earned. What I’m trying to say is that I really can’t expect to have too many secrets when my domain name is my FRICKIN’ REAL NAME!
So, from now on, you can still look forward to the random X-Men reference, but I’ll also try to include a little bit more on me. After all, this isn’t just for you, it’s for me. This was supposed to be therapeutic, which is something I could really use right now. I feel really vulnerable right now, but that’s how I’m supposed to feel. After all, this is a journal of sorts. So, I’d like you to get to know the real me…that is, if you really want to….
I gotta stop blogging after drinking! Friends, don’t let friends blog drunk!
